the song bohemian rhapsody reminds me the show i watched.. dead man walking. are some people worth the second chance? how would we know if we dont give them the chance? what if giving them the second chance was a mistake? who is to answer for it? sigh. life aint fair.. even if someone rich commits an unforgivable crime, he gets the best lawyer to defend for him.. and make someone else the scapegoat.. wouldnt he be scotfree?

what about the family and loved ones of the person to be sentenced to death? what if he has realized his mistake? will killing him make up for the loss? is it justified? i thought thou shalt not kill? whatever is being taught to kids? we cover our kids' eyes to violence and unjustice.. cuz they are too young and innocent and sweet to take it.. but then somehow somewhere in time they are slowly being exposed to the realities of life.. and adulthood realities start to set in on me this year.. that life is not always a fairytale. hmm. and you don't always get what you want in life. like love. love is so powerful..it can lift us up where we belong.. yet bring us down to dungeons so deep and dark we find it a struggle to climb out of it..

why.is.life.so.cruel?

why.cant.innocence.reign.the.world?

this.is.the.final.trace.of.innocence.

Bohemian Rhapsody-

Mama, just killed a man, put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead Mama, life had just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama oooh... Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come, sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye everybody, I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama oooh (any way the wind blows)
I don't want to die, I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

i fear losing the things dearest to me.. my loved ones.. my memories.. everything that i have always depended on.. for life... love.. hope.. everything.

why am i so vulnerable? sigh. but then, i shoud still be blessed for whatever i have now.
- Thank you God.