i feel like some failure. the feeling totally sucks. it's like some repeat from two months back. but i don't know which is worse, seriously.

i need to have motivation. i figured that's one of the most important things we all need in life, at least at some point in time.

on a happier note, SPIDERMAN 3 is coming out tomorrow! =D (and shrek 3 soon!)



today was quite a fulfilling day! woke up at 630am.. to head to training at changi airport for the new job! =) so met siewhan there.. then we were being led to this room.. which looks abit like a dance studio with one of the four walls having a mirror and a bar on it. haha. then we played some "interactive game". the instructor was funny! so.. the whole experience was fun. hehe. then both of us went to check out the staff toilet. wahh! very nice! cuz it's like a gym toilet.. but the bathroom area is nicer with a partition for your shower area and changing area. so you don't have to get your pants wet while changing into it after bathing! and ya, the bathroom looked classy. and they have badminton courts and table tennis courts too. makes the urge of me wanting to play both of those games even stronger this time round!

after that went to eat at popeye's at terminal one with sh. updated each other with not only our lives, but other people's lives too. haha! after that headed to dentist to get retainers tightened. and he said get an xray 6months time to check on the growth of the wisdom teeth. i didn't know the wisdom teeth were in the gum all along! like in hibernation. and he said might need surgery cuz there might not be enough space! arghhhhh! more of freaked out than frustrated actually.

then had some time off to myself.. went to kino to check out the phantom piano scores! the easy ones were too easy (it's like printed in big notes like those meant for kids, haha), so i decided to buy the hard one. challenging myself is good, just like what yt says. =) went home, and immediately started trying out some of the songs. so my mom was like teaching me some chords stuff.

then updated julia on some stuffs too.. realized some problems they face were similar.. so felt better. just that hers made it very clear to her, so its probably some communication problem, i hope. if you don't understand what i'm talking, it's okay. haha. i'm getting quite incoherent by the day. so talked to mellin also.. about stuffs. well, yeah.

simple day. but i'm one happy girl today. cuz i thought it's quite fulfilling. =)

tomorrow is NY big bash 30th years! hopefully can see eunice there.



my idea for why i need the scholarship which even succeeded in convincing me that i really need the scholarship came two days too late. ahh well.

the phone has been ringing non-stop this morning: all i need is some peace and quiet.

i had another dream this morning.. something playing on my subconscious mind again i think. but in both this dream and the other i can never reveal (actually both i would not reveal), i made it very clear what i wanted -- which is what i've got now. maybe i just needed some thrill.

drinking has become so much of a pleasure to me now. i wonder this is good or bad. maybe it's just the place, and the people.



hey hey i'm back!

anyway, today had smu interview. it was only when i got there, that one of the ushers told me it's a scholarship cum admission interview, so it's not conducted in the normal group, so it's individual. i didn't even apply for scholarship! but since they screened me for it, of course i wanted it! but then i think i screwed the scholarship part cuz i think i gave them the impression that i did not want it! ahhhh.

okay. today cw msged me back from army! he's a sniper! but there's news. haha his unit damn sick. there's a guy that got jailed for having sex with an underaged, and another is on trial for raping his neighbour le! =X was shocked at that.
anyway, more important thing, cw must take care! don't injure yourself again!

hmm.

bought donuts today. it's not bad la. the dough is nice! =) but the craze of queueing for so long? it's probably cuz there's only one donut shop that's acceptably nice in singapore. should get people to bring in j. co and krispy creme donuts here!

at jujull's house now.. hehe. been slacking for almost whole day here. then when mellin came, took some photos with the macbook camera. haha. had lotsa fun playing around with the effects. i love apple computers! =)


hmm.. so tomorrow will be tai-tais in-the-making session with mahjong, and bridge! hehe. then indochine saturday night! =)

okie. go play with camera and watch tv le. hehe. byeee~



i just haveeeeee to post about this. although its quite, well, outdated.

but i just read this off someone's blog today, regarding manchester united's thrashing of roma: totti cried because of that fateful match, which he considers to be the 'saddest' game in his career.

hmm. haha. sorry to roma's/totti's fans, but yea.

i still have to do alot of things that i mentally made a list of. but haven't gotten to doing because of, well, in the don't-feel-like-doing-anything mood again. very stagnant.

sunday seems quite far away..

and, am waiting to watch the fa cup finals may19!!

whoosh.

oh, and yes, i dreamt of something on monday morning when i woke up, and fell back to sleep again. it's one of those dreams that you can never tell anyone. but the thrill.. haha. its fun. anyone wanna guess? hehe.

yes, one more thing, please let me do that during this long holiday break. please please, cuz it's my dream.