maybe the best way out of the whole situation was to stay away from all the action. that might have been the best way out, to salvage whatever that would be left. maybe God truly had this plan. on january 6th.. i truly cherished that day. when we could reconnect and pick up from where we left off. and what you said to me that day.. it truly warmed me so much. i hope something will come out from all of this.. i don't want to let go of such a friendship. i miss you too.

anyway, went to dxo today. chilled with wenjie siewhan vanessa. aileen, as usual, is perpetually busy. bish. talked about the past.. about the present. and dug up old scandals. haha! looking forward to the next! =)

please let me stop looking back at regrets and help me look forward to a promising and meaningful life ahead. =)

i think that's what happens when i suddenly become free from work. and my mind starts to think of things. people, enjoy the months you have before uni! you won't get a chance like this anymore! take time off to do something out of the ordinary!



i think we all are similar in one way or another. about how we take risks. don't know if its entirely based on the heart. but sometimes, life is about taking risks. for affairs of the heart, i don't think we stand to lose. for if anything fails, at least we know we seized the chance, and i'm damn sure we obtained some happiness out of that period in time when everything was working well. we only live once, do we?

speaking of living once, some people hope to live twice. i'm being more than a little greedy here. but i wished we could live thrice. if you had a decision to make and you had two choices, and you had to weigh the pros and cons of each, you could have chosen one path in your first life and went on to see the consequences.. then in your next life, choose the second path, and witness the consequences.. then in your third and final life, you get to choose which path you would have preferred. i really wish to know the outcome of the one potential choice i had back then.

would that be labelled a regret in life to know that you didn't choose one of the the two potential choices in mind?

but if everything works out, and i mean in every aspect, i will know this was God's plan.
i want to have the cake and eat it too. [is this correct?]

and yes, i'm starting to think office work is mundane and well, almost carries no meaning. i want to get to interact with people. you know the feeling you get when you bring joy to someone's life no matter how small the deed you did and they appreciate and thank you for that? i think that's invaluable. i wonder if the hotel industry is one path i could take?