i'm scared of what the future may hold for me.. i'm scared of major changes.. i'm scared of the unknown. i'm scared of the unpredictable. which means, i'm scared of life itself because 'life is unpredictable' darn it. i really am scared at times.

i lie awake in bed every night, thinking of the possibilities of everything to come. ok that was bullshit. but sometimes i think of the worst that can happen. sometimes, i think i worry too much. i'm scared.

i'm scared of losing everything that i hold close to my heart right now.. i'm scared of changes. i don't want anything to change. at least not the good ones. what if i break a heart? what if i get my heart broken? i want my fairytale. i want my dreams to come true. are my dreams big? that quiz i did online was true.. i dream of a beautiful future.. but i worry if i will achieve it. i don't want disappointment. i hate disappointment. i don't want it anymore. go away. >.<

i dream to find true love that is everlasting. i dream to spend my life with the man that i truly love and who truly loves me and cares for me, for who i am. cuz i believe in true and everlasting love, and i want to be able to experience it. i believe in love. a true believer. love, is a blessing. i dream to be a.. manager.. or something along that line. and a successful one at that. i dream to be happy.. i dream to live in my beautiful sweet home. i dream. i dream. i dream that i will become a very good mother, and daughter, and wife. ok that was a screwed up order. it should have been daughter, wife, then mother. i dream to be able to balance work, play and family well.. that is work and social life. i dream to have a son first, then a daughter. (cuz i've always wanted an elder bro) i dream, i dream. i dream that my parents will support me in whatever i deem right to do.. and that they will live to see me grow up and be successful, and see me happy. i dream i dream. oh Lord please grant me my wishes. please. is it alot to dream for?

i want my child-like innocence back. is naiveness an innocence? -the child-like laughter.