just some random thoughts for tonight.. while listening to slow music. has anyone ever felt that they feel the need to tell anyone how they feel.. but at the same time you also don't want anyone to know.. and also even if you can think of someone to speak to you don't want to cuz you already know what kind of reaction you would be given? cuz like you're running away from reality and you just don't want anyone to say it right in your face. you just wanna shut your face to any so-called advice people would try to give you. hmms. its so easy to tell people things, but yet so hard to make them understand your predicament.

i seriously cannot fathom how the heart works. they say the heart is too small for one to actually love more than one person, in that aspect. then how does one actually tell who they love more? sometimes your mind is clouded by confusion, or intoxicated so much so that you can't tell, or make decisions and not regret it later. clouded misjudgement, as someone calls it.

"i've got my share of sand kicked in the face." - quoted from chee wei's nick. life.. can be full of sh*t. but you just gotta move on. if i was pessimistic, i think i wouldn't have survived all the embarrassment / suan-ing that i've gotten my whole life. yes i do make a fool out of myself. everyone does. the only difference is how they handle it.

anyway, who says there's freedom of speech? freedom of speech? ahh. bullsh*t. do you like to hear things you don't want to hear?

ahh. music. i want the cd that i heard at that cd shop. i want it sooo bad! emma! her voice is crystal clear and ohh. the songs melt my heart. i WANT it. can someone find it for me? damn. i guessed so.

on letting go.. [another random thought] =P whoever said that letting go was easy? sometimes unconsciously, one may find it sneakily slipping into your mind again.

anyway, i've got my priorities set in life. i know who/what's more important than who/what. am i making any sense? aiya.

i cant wait to go chill out at the pub. with the soothing music playing in the background.

sometimes i think im so greedy. i want this kind of life, i want that kind of life.. ahh. shall not delve deeper into this.