he still cares.. =) he asked for my meepok last night.. he wanted my meepok! hee.. thanks thanks. and to those who bothered too.. thanks thanks. =) juz feeling v thankful right now.. or something. haha.

and to the person who listened to me about it, thanks thanks. i know you're not reading this.. but still.. =) te amo.

sometimes i think my life is fated.. cuz there are many repeats of similar events every now and then. and it aint a good thing.. bahhs.

i woke up feeling very bad.. real bad. that i almost wanted to lock myself up in an invisible barrier.. but then i felt the urge to play the piano.. so i got up.. then listened to the cd i got for my bday mths ago.. cuz yesterday suddenly one song from it played in my head.. duno if im strong headed or what.. its like when i have the urge to do something suddenly, and i really mean suddenly, i'll suddenly jump up and try to find that thing to do what i wanna do. then people will wonder what im trying to do. ahh whateverr.. im like that la. and im very stubborn, i don't really like people telling me what to do.. why cant you just let me try and then learn from my own mistakes? stop interfering can? unless the danger is too great or something la.. maybe its cuz of the culture i grew up in since young ba.. BIS.

another thing, in jakarta you hardly see people wearin shorts and flip flops making their way to malls.. its lk. wth? people wear nice nice. i mean not like shorts. they wear pants or something. so the culture shock.. (even though its been 6 yrs) is still there.. but then i also started wearin very casually when i feel like it la.. but then never to town or sth. just neighbourhoods.

-the power of love can be constructive, and unfortunately, destructive too. it presents itself as a power too great that it can drive people to take up violent forms to commit crimes of passion, under the clouded mind- just my thot today..

i cant wait till the sky turns indigo =)