oh thursday i went bowling at marina superbowl. guess what. i got my first turkey ever!! triple strikes wa seh. haha. final score 138. mm.. one of my highest ba. =D then got diminishing returns after that. 124 and 83. =X haha.

anyway, i think im falling sick. but i wanna go sentosa tomorrow. i shall go ba.. bless me.

and. kindly pay attention to this. i will not regret my choice. i cant believe i have to say such things here. never did i think that i would stoop till like this. its gone. im deceiving no one. maybe you're the one deceiving yourself. aint no turning back. "over means over" familiar?



just some random thoughts for tonight.. while listening to slow music. has anyone ever felt that they feel the need to tell anyone how they feel.. but at the same time you also don't want anyone to know.. and also even if you can think of someone to speak to you don't want to cuz you already know what kind of reaction you would be given? cuz like you're running away from reality and you just don't want anyone to say it right in your face. you just wanna shut your face to any so-called advice people would try to give you. hmms. its so easy to tell people things, but yet so hard to make them understand your predicament.

i seriously cannot fathom how the heart works. they say the heart is too small for one to actually love more than one person, in that aspect. then how does one actually tell who they love more? sometimes your mind is clouded by confusion, or intoxicated so much so that you can't tell, or make decisions and not regret it later. clouded misjudgement, as someone calls it.

"i've got my share of sand kicked in the face." - quoted from chee wei's nick. life.. can be full of sh*t. but you just gotta move on. if i was pessimistic, i think i wouldn't have survived all the embarrassment / suan-ing that i've gotten my whole life. yes i do make a fool out of myself. everyone does. the only difference is how they handle it.

anyway, who says there's freedom of speech? freedom of speech? ahh. bullsh*t. do you like to hear things you don't want to hear?

ahh. music. i want the cd that i heard at that cd shop. i want it sooo bad! emma! her voice is crystal clear and ohh. the songs melt my heart. i WANT it. can someone find it for me? damn. i guessed so.

on letting go.. [another random thought] =P whoever said that letting go was easy? sometimes unconsciously, one may find it sneakily slipping into your mind again.

anyway, i've got my priorities set in life. i know who/what's more important than who/what. am i making any sense? aiya.

i cant wait to go chill out at the pub. with the soothing music playing in the background.

sometimes i think im so greedy. i want this kind of life, i want that kind of life.. ahh. shall not delve deeper into this.



how great. i clicked on publish post then next page goes: search the web. nice. anyway, in the end i watched flight plan. nice show. had a twist near the end. quite interesting. couldn't eat my popcorn properly, kept dropping it. 8 popcorns. haha. seat number: 11 + 12. mmm.

spent lotsa time at best denki fooling around. playing with every single thing you could name, cookers, players, cameras, phones, gigantic hairdryers, shavers, facsimiles. everything. fun. watched monsters, inc. jack jack from incredibles and 3 disney ducks having a sad face behind bars. very cute. haha.

did anyone realize.. Singtel, MobileOne and Starhub all form the abbreviation SMS? =P

yesterday morning, chee wei said some wise words to me. made me come to my senses. with higher authority, the best thing to do is: when they are talkin useful stuffs, listen. when they're not, just shut your ears. just because they are higher authority doesn't necessarily mean they know everything. sometimes you have to take the rap for things you didn't do. "as long as you can face your conscience, so be it. your only fault is oversleeping. but the responsibility wise, its bullshit." thanks man. i gotta learn to be less sensitive to such attacks. still got a looong way to go.. bahhs.

anyway, today i saw this guy wearin a shirt with some meaningful quote.. cant remember exactly.. but the jist is something like freedom of speech means having the right to say the words that other people don't like to hear.

drank rum today. niceee. just a few more months and i can drink alcohol legally! hee. 18 years how fast.

anyway, i just realized, even from jakarta to singapore you can also get culture shock. what more going across the globe. hmms.

oh.. yesterday night.. very special. =) by the river, under the moonlight. when everything else around gets drowned out, everything else around me loses its focus, cuz you're the only star in my eye. =)

-23.10.2005-
as the rose petals drift away from the shore.. we hope you can hear our hopes, wishes and prayers for you.. and that we hope you know you will be remembered, in our hearts, forever.



"hadapi dengan senyuman" - face it with a smile.

i tried. but i failed. i controlled. but it was all in vain. it came, it dropped. like raindrops. wth?! screwer. basket basket basket. hate myself for breaking down right there. how could it happen. i guess it all came tumbling down on me and i couldn't break free, anymore.

is it fate that something always crops up when we wanna meet? like there's never a whole day free. or maybe i'm just not trying hard enough. yea. i should believe in fate.. so now must watch flight plan [fight pan =P] on another day.

sometimes i just want to know what guys are thinking.. for their every word they say.. for their every action they do. sometimes.. i can't fathom. but sometimes.. i guess its better left unknown. ignorance, may be bliss. after all.

one down, two more to go. but then for the other one right, i think.. hopeless la.

superficial _____.

last night was bitching with kelly. haha bad i know.. but it was fun.lets out frustrations.



a guy thinks of sex on an average of every eight minutes. yes. eight minutes! how could it be? that's the average time i think of food! -.- no la. fascinating anot? please say yes.

lost my pink pencil case today.. panicked. then sushi called her friend to help me find at LT2. guess i left it there after bio lect. then lisan and sushi went "its fate". nooooooo~ i refuse to give in to fate. in the end, i got it back. i wonder what God's trying to say.

hmm.. sometimes i complain then people think i too serious they think i very sad. actually no la. i where got so pessimistic de.. just complain to feel a teeny wheeny bit better only ma. haha. but then, sometimes its real la. feel so pek cek sometimes. grrrr..

rahhhhh. i want my chemistry prowess back. >.<>must sleep early. i learnt my lesson, papa and mama.

anyway, i was thinking.. if it continues to be like this, i wonder if it can withstand time and other factors.. cuz its like always so near yet so far lei. so unreachable. =X cuz i figured i always want to make the best of things and what i feel is really very strong. when i do something, i want to make it last. forever. and i mean it. so.. since its very important to me, i GOTTA FREAKIN DO SOMETHING! but how lei?

lisan: how could you scold yourself stupid?! you're not stupid okie? =)



a guy thinks of sex on an average of every eight minutes. yes. eight minutes! how could it be? that's the average time i think of food! -.- no la. fascinating anot?

lost my pink pencil case today.. panicked. then sushi called her friend to help me find at LT2. guess i left it there after bio lect. then lisan and sushi went "its fate". nooooooo~ i refuse to give in to fate. in the end, i got it back. i wonder what God's trying to say.

hmm.. sometimes i complain then people think i too serious they think i very sad. actually no la. i where got so pessimistic de.. just complain to feel a teeny wheeny bit better only ma. haha. but then, sometimes its real la. feel so pek cek sometimes. grrrr..

rahhhhh. i want my chemistry prowess back. >.<>must sleep early. i learnt my lesson, papa and mama.

anyway, i was thinking.. if it continues to be like this, i wonder if it can withstand time and other factors.. cuz its like always so near yet so far lei. so unreachable. =X cuz i figured i always want to make the best of things and what i feel is really very strong. when i do something, i want to make it last. forever. and i mean it. so.. since its very important to me, i GOTTA FREAKIN DO SOMETHING! but how lei?

lisan: how could you scold yourself stupid?! you're not stupid okie? =)



still at my cousin's house.. woke up at 2pm today.. cuz i slept at 4+am yesterday.. went to watch midnight show 1145pm april snow. omg.. sooo slow-paced soo boring. "what a nice movie.." -.- supposed to be heart-wrenching.. but then i guess the slow pace was, uhh.. too much. haha. hmm.. but then the phrase april snow.. quite nice.. don't really know what's the hidden meaning of the end of the show.. maybe it shows that they were meant to be but then cuz of the responsibilities the guy had with the wife (that cheated on him)..they cant be together. quite sad actually come to think of it.

then after the show went to eat at coffee club near the california fitness centre.. actually i didn't order anything.. but then after seeing them eat. i was like.. eh i think im hungry so i ordered.. then omg order came already i regret ordering. -.- but no choice so i ate. was very nice talking there and it was not very crowded.. cuz it was already 3+am.. then we decided to walk walk walk to the bus stop behind wheelock place to take NR home.. wah.. wait until we perspire like mad. sorta slept on the way back.. then went home wash face brush teeth change clothes and was already lying on the bed. then slept at 4+am.. haha.

on the way to cathay before that right.. mel went "what happened to you ah.. stop eating la" i was lk omg. really eating so much mehz. haiz i guess so.. my love for food grew bigger. hmm.. but then i guess it was lack of exercise la. ahhh must exercise.

anyway.. mel cooked fried rice for us.. hmm.. quite nice la. =P she's beside me playin maple now. haha.. reminds me.. maybe i should try franson's fried rice.. since he says his family likes it.. hmm..

was supposed to go home at 3+ but now is already gonna be 4 soon. haha aiya.. anyway supposed to watch meet the fockers. maybe later go and watch. so lazy go home.. from clementi to sengkang lei. so loong mrt ride.. *sob*



bloggin at my cousin's house now.. been staying over since fri evenin.. after ny open house. v fun! cuz i played vball match, lil bit of tennis and also table tennis match. and tonight i'll be watching midnight show april snow.. =) quite fun here cuz no adults.. all went back jakarta.. so me mel and jul settle our own stuffs here. haha.

hmm.. presenting S10B's volleyball team.....
[jane][beijia][valerie][chai kee][sharon][evelyn]

we rock our socks! haha.. we're the best newcomer team! haha.. we had to play against a team with all pro vballers.. and a team with 4 guys and brenda and another pro vballer. ahh.. but nvm v fun! at least i didn't screw up my chance to serve.. cuz it was already 14-5, and then i was about to serve. so if i screw that serve that's the end. haha.. not bad.. cuz we checked out the score board and then we saw that the scores were 0:15, 15:0 for the other teams but then we had like at least 15:2 and 15:4, and considering that we were playing against pro vballers.. not bad eh. haha.. to beijia: its not your fault kay.. we're a WE not an I.. WE are a team. =)

then played table tennis match.. hmm.. played against chee tat.. knowin i will lose la.. like duhh~ haha..he give one smack i die liao. wahaha.. but anyway just play my best la try to hit the ball.. but not stressed up at all. haha.. then ok lost.. then play doubles with cynthia against kiyoko and yu zhi.. capt and v capt lei. aiya but then nvm doubles more fun and challenging.. got one set we almost won! ahh. haha..

then later play singles with danni.. didnt get trashed badly.. i won one set! haha.. then the rest quite close lo.. aiya. i think i improved le.. at least i think so. haha. the teacher said i played well today.. =)

zhiyang gave me pink heart balloon with a star inside! haha.. thank you! =) but now.. the balloon is almost out of shape.. =X but i'll keep it.. somewhere safe in my heart. i wont break it.. i promise =)

today went njc open house.. saw lotsa people =) then gave tinghui and gwenda their belated bday prezzies.. too bad aL not there.. oh..i saw yiting. poke her from behind.. she turn around.. saw me.. jump off her seat and came to me. haha.. feels kinda good talkin to her again. anyway, wanted to find louis.. but he went off early cuz got fever. damn. haha. he thot i not coming le or something. he said want treat me to movie to compensate. i was like what? since when were you so generous? haha.. aiya maybe say say only.

volleyball is fun fun fun! we shall go sentosa to play again! wheeee~

ok.. to that person who knows what i'm talking about.. we shall go borders again to finish reading that very interesting book. wahaha..

anyway.. ciao~



i so kid mehz.. children's day ppl say its MY day. haha.. but nvm.. good to be young. =) then always got ppl call me kiddo.. and stuffs. haha.. anyway.. decided to do this:

random facts about evelyn
1. i love 05s10b
2. i love eating
3. but recently am trying to cut down
4. cuz am afraid of losing shape
5. i love the violin
6. i love music
7. cant live without it
8. i love the beach, the sun, the waves
9. i like quiet places, especially at night
10. i love the moon and the stars
11. i love to sleep
12. i love my family and cousins =D
13. i love my fwens
14. i love you*
15. people call me kiddo, lil piggy
16. i love the night secnery, what with the skyline and twinkling city lights
17. i love a candlelit dinner
18. i love anything to do with romance
19. i have sudden urges and moods
20. i love romance comedies. nth can beat that.
21. i love slumber parties.
22. i love a wide array of songs
23. my favourite number. [no hidden meaning]
24. i want to go changi beach and spend the night there and just count the planes
25. i want to go paris, switzerland, (actually everywhere of europe), maldives (before it sinks!) hawaii, bali (its heavenly.. but.. basket la), canada, hongkong, japan.. aiya. i want to tour the world.
26. i want to go paris for my honeymoon. ooh~
27. i love sports. especially volleyball, tennis, blah blah.
28. i love bowling.. *miss those times*
29. i can be very fascinated over the slightest things. =)
30. the list stops here. haha.



i know its my 3rd time bloggin for the day.. but who gives? i stayed home the whole day it gave me a whole lot of time to think..

after hearing that you stayed up practically the whole night just to wait for that ONE reply.. i felt so.. so.. i don't know any appropriate word to describe it.. and you forced yourself awake by watching a show you just watched the night before..

but that aint so much the point now, the point is.. my friend knocked some sense into me..

"he did what great love would do.. i mean it proves that he is really sincere to you.. that he really cares.. i mean a guy would only do that for ONE girl..and i mean ONE.. no more.. ONE!!!"

that, set me thinking. that, got me really reassured. that, made me feel special.

the fact that he's easily tired and falls asleep makes it all the more.. wow. you know.



i saw this phrase from some stranger's blog.. cuz i happened to come across it.. somehow.. and i saw this:

那一晚，我很难过。 因为我知道你再也不会因为我而停下脚步。那一晚， 我很开心。 因为我知道你再也不会因为我而留下遗憾。
或许你真的在我的生命里留下太多太多的回忆。 至今， 我仍然缅怀。 当然我已经清楚， 并也承认了一个事实， 我们是不会再在一起的。

haha so true.. ive moved on.. but it doesnt hurt to cherish the past right?

"因为我的心里已你为模式， 所以我将永远找不到另一个你。 或许吧。" from the blog.. aint this life always full of comparison no matter how hard you try not to? cuz sometimes it happens so subconsciously that you don't even know you're practising that. but i dont mean what i just pasted though.

任性是_好?



he still cares.. =) he asked for my meepok last night.. he wanted my meepok! hee.. thanks thanks. and to those who bothered too.. thanks thanks. =) juz feeling v thankful right now.. or something. haha.

and to the person who listened to me about it, thanks thanks. i know you're not reading this.. but still.. =) te amo.

sometimes i think my life is fated.. cuz there are many repeats of similar events every now and then. and it aint a good thing.. bahhs.

i woke up feeling very bad.. real bad. that i almost wanted to lock myself up in an invisible barrier.. but then i felt the urge to play the piano.. so i got up.. then listened to the cd i got for my bday mths ago.. cuz yesterday suddenly one song from it played in my head.. duno if im strong headed or what.. its like when i have the urge to do something suddenly, and i really mean suddenly, i'll suddenly jump up and try to find that thing to do what i wanna do. then people will wonder what im trying to do. ahh whateverr.. im like that la. and im very stubborn, i don't really like people telling me what to do.. why cant you just let me try and then learn from my own mistakes? stop interfering can? unless the danger is too great or something la.. maybe its cuz of the culture i grew up in since young ba.. BIS.

another thing, in jakarta you hardly see people wearin shorts and flip flops making their way to malls.. its lk. wth? people wear nice nice. i mean not like shorts. they wear pants or something. so the culture shock.. (even though its been 6 yrs) is still there.. but then i also started wearin very casually when i feel like it la.. but then never to town or sth. just neighbourhoods.

-the power of love can be constructive, and unfortunately, destructive too. it presents itself as a power too great that it can drive people to take up violent forms to commit crimes of passion, under the clouded mind- just my thot today..

i cant wait till the sky turns indigo =)



our fullerton.. wheeee~

today.. i went up to the observation lounge at mandarin hotel. omg.. its sooo romantic and dark.. its like u sit on the sofa with the table.. with a candlelight.. and then you look out.. the view is magnificent.. breath taking. ooooooooooooh. that's it! that's the place i want! you look out the full length window and you see the city lights of singapore. ooh so nice. with the candlelight flickering.. in thy eyes.. drinking tequila.. or any other cocktail for that matter.

oh anyway, speaking of the observation lounge.. reminds me of the time i went there.. after my grad ball at hilton..

then i went up the stairs to the top of the M! revolving restaurant.. moves at like.. 1mm per sec. haha its slow. i wonder if that's the standard speed for revolving restaurants. maybe they dont want you to get headache and then start puking all their food out. saves all the trouble. -.- anw, the view was maginificent too.. then there was this trio playin cello guitar and some other instrument i dint really see.. to every table.. so nice. haha. BUT.. i dint eat there. wahaha..

you know.. i dont see the point in people trying to coerce me to eat something that i DONT like. and.. the point is.. the thing isnt something nutritious or something. its lk.. junk? some glutinous rice thingy with sesame seeds.. soo sticky and soo sweet.. and its black and white and shiny! i see already got headache. haiz.. duno why lei i see such black and white teeny wheeny stuff so shiny i will have headache. in the end.. to shang2 lian3, i ate a lil bit. omg it stuck to my teeth. eeks.. nice mehz? whateverr. haha..

haiz.. my nick put 'our fullerton'.. reminds me of sec 4 that NE game.. i was sooooooo close to building fullerton and earnin my big buck to win the game. BUT.. i forgot what happened. i dint manage to build it. juz cuz i clicked on sth wrongly. wth. sooo pek cek. haha. and then now.. my nick lkdat.. someone mistakes it for sth. ahh crapper.

anw.. ciao.



luckily, this world works on the basis of 'to each his own' if not, everyone would be all scurrying for the same thing, and that would spell huge trouble for us all. since they say one is attracted to a certain smell the opposite smell gives off subconsciously, let's say, if all the girls were to go for that one particular guy which has a smell that turns them on.. then how? wouldnt the rest of the guys be sooo darn condemned to be single for the rest of their lives? oh man. luckily luckily luckily.. haha it was a very random thought la.

today i woke up so early.. just cuz i woke up at 845am then my dad came in and kacau me.. he used the comp in my room.. then couldnt fall asleep anymore. so there.

now that the promos are over.. i can concentrate on other things! here's some i plan to do:
1. EXERCISE! - my stagnancy for the past few months is taking its toll on me! its real bad.. i gotta work on my stamina.. and my gorging on food has not helped.. i gotta shed those fats! ugh. and i gotta stretch my muscles.. streeeeeeeeetchhh.

2. cut hair! - yes yes i was the first to say i wanted to cut hair.. and then everyone else around me cuts their hair before i do. bleahs. i WILL cut hair next week.. =D

3. shop! - it's a lady's prerogative to shop right? =D ive been wanting this sling bag.. but i still havent gotten down to buying it! and i want hair accessories! i got sick of all the normal hair stuffs. wheeeeet. hmm.. and i want new clothes! i want those short bermudas.. i duno if its in fashion or something but i keep seeing those models wear them.

4. read. for the past few weeks all that ive doing was sleeping, and eating, and watching tv. a very good and sure-successful way to just sit and get fat. havent been reading much. i wanna read the da vinci code.. its hidden somewhere under my stack of books on my table.. which is currently taking up at least 3/4 of my table. that's why i dun study at my table. (i study at anywhere else you can name other than the table.) now don't ask me the purpose of the table. i know.

i cant remember what else i wanna do liao.. whahaha.. oooh! EAT! but must exercise first lei.. if not later get fat. bahhs. like its my first time ever worrying about my body. oosh.

yayy gonna have new blogskin soon.. from sushi! hee.. =P

ok.. i juz read this guy's blog.. if i dun remember wrongly he was in OG1. his blog q nice to read le..then like he seems like a nice guy from what he writes. well he seemed like a nice guy in O1 too anw. got emotions de. so cat hi may not be so bad after all. bespectacled guys from cat hi. (+ darryl). haha. the rest. bahhs.

anw.. to quote from him: change, one thing that is constant in this world. ironic it is but all so dreadfully true. how so many yearn to pull back the hands of time. we treasure mostly what has been lost, yet at the same time we must endear what we have now. how long does one take to learn a lesson? how long does change occur? when do we know we've stopped changing? i sound pessimistic but doesn't change sound both exuberant yet melancholic at times?

true.. change is so unpredictable you duno wads in store for you.. its exciting but.. wait. there's always a reason for things that happen. i'd always held that belief close to my heart. and that.. helps me pull through certain rough times. like for that.. ive found a reason. and the reason is you*

ok gotta close this. go watch mtv asia le! wheeeeeet.