on friday.. it was sushi's birthday.. then i tried to light a matchstick.. play play ma.. den wa seh. first strike got fire le! my first ever lit matchstick. den hor no one was happy for me lo.. =( only sushi was.. yay.. tnks sushi.. =)

at the ice cream parlour; looking into your eyes.. when nothing else matters.. looking out the full length window.. out into the skyline of the city.. with bright lights twinkling in accompaniment with the stars.. with jazz music played in the background. just you and me. sipping coffee. with the lit candle wavering in the dark. you. and. me. always.

under the stars and the moon, we sit by the waves.. you and me.. together. in each other's arms, lying against each other.. looking out into the far horizon.. with the waves washing onshore.. occasionally touching our feet.. with the gentle sea breeze caressing our cheeks..

just you and me. =)

all my life; kci and jojo

All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too Yes,
I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You

oooh~

sweet. =)



everybody HAS A FREAKIN PATIENCE LIMIT. and b*stards juz happen to not be aware of it. UNFORTUNATELY. ive tolerated you for a very freakin bloody long time. oooooh. i forgot. maybe you're just deprived and cut off due to your four years being stuck in A place. that you forget how to conduct yourself in front of certain people. desensitized INhumans. i feel sooo sorry for you.

what they say is true. people tend to fly off the handle with people they are close with. so. if i blow my top at you, it could be
1. we're very close
2. MY BLOODY FREAKIN FLOODGATE HAS BEEN BURST OPEN that you have pushed your limits wayyyyyyyyyyy too far. oh. i cant see the limit anymore.

I HATE YOU. cuz i've had ENOUGH. you know, ENOUGH? SUFFICIENT? CUKUP?

YOU JUST WAIT. TAKE MY WORDS. I BLOODY WELL MEAN IT.

-if you think im scolding you, no. im not. its someone else.

'whoever who does not agree with me is an idiot' you are an idiot, do you not agree? -from someone's nick.





had a terribly headache just now.. when i tried to lie on the bed my mind was practically whirling.. bahhs. the plane my dad took got some engine problem.. fuel leak - fire hazard. God bless he landed safely midway in HK. wth. why always got problem?! anyway today i decorated some pics.. here are some of em.. hope its nice. =)



yesterday went to open house of biopolis.. nanotech and bioengineering.. the nanos. haha.. whoa the lab got lotsa china scientists and eh..german? the bottomline is there are lotsa foreign workers.. where have all the talented singaporeans gone? goodness. we actually have to recruit foreign talent to become a hub.. pathetic. sigh. waliewz then the china guy accent so strong i couldnt understand what he was saying.. he said 'linear' in a very weird manner that i didnt even know he was sayin 'linear'. then when he started speaking i almost burst out laughing cuz it reminded me of the HK accent russell peters was imitating. then at the end he went 'ok thank you' then zhiyang couldnt help but laugh nonstop -.- then move on to the next lab is some angmoh the accent also very funny zhiyang also cant help but laugh. then make me laugh.. but luckily i could control.. so bad!! haha.. the worst thing was we were right in front of him. luckily i tall enough to block him from laughing when he bent down. >.< haha..

then went to ikea eat meatballs. i know its friday.. haiz. nvm i will compensate today. so far haven't eat any meat. =D yesterday so happy cuz tootsie pei wo take mrt.. haha =P

"you're every woman in the world to me" wheee~ haha. =)

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same, cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

stay the same by joey mcIntyre



rachel loves joey and joey loves rachel. =) but that love is not the love rachel has for ross. if it was.. life would be screwed.

losing faith...? sigh. i guess the wound has left a scar in my heart somehow la. that fear has never gone away.. it only subsided for a period of time. promises are hardly promises. what people say today may mean another thing tomorrow. who can guarantee their words will hold the same meaning twenty years down the road? hmm.

i love cherries. =) so sweet.. just like me. hahaha. >.<



the song bohemian rhapsody reminds me the show i watched.. dead man walking. are some people worth the second chance? how would we know if we dont give them the chance? what if giving them the second chance was a mistake? who is to answer for it? sigh. life aint fair.. even if someone rich commits an unforgivable crime, he gets the best lawyer to defend for him.. and make someone else the scapegoat.. wouldnt he be scotfree?

what about the family and loved ones of the person to be sentenced to death? what if he has realized his mistake? will killing him make up for the loss? is it justified? i thought thou shalt not kill? whatever is being taught to kids? we cover our kids' eyes to violence and unjustice.. cuz they are too young and innocent and sweet to take it.. but then somehow somewhere in time they are slowly being exposed to the realities of life.. and adulthood realities start to set in on me this year.. that life is not always a fairytale. hmm. and you don't always get what you want in life. like love. love is so powerful..it can lift us up where we belong.. yet bring us down to dungeons so deep and dark we find it a struggle to climb out of it..

why.is.life.so.cruel?

why.cant.innocence.reign.the.world?

this.is.the.final.trace.of.innocence.

Bohemian Rhapsody-

Mama, just killed a man, put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead Mama, life had just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama oooh... Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come, sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye everybody, I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama oooh (any way the wind blows)
I don't want to die, I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

i fear losing the things dearest to me.. my loved ones.. my memories.. everything that i have always depended on.. for life... love.. hope.. everything.

why am i so vulnerable? sigh. but then, i shoud still be blessed for whatever i have now.
- Thank you God.



one can love so many people.. but yet.. only one person will receive the special love that will blossom into a love that only marriage unites. and only marriage can unite. although its a very fine line between all the different types of love.. it is tonight.. (one of the nights) when i truly know who that special one person is. cuz i miss you so much. there are so many aspects of love..

sigh.. you must be sleeping.. that's why. piggy. WAKE UP CAN ANOT?! sigh. i miss you.. like mad.. although i just saw you just now.

today i slept from 3 to 8pm.. so loong. i even slept so soundly on the bus.. even when the bus stopped halfway at the expressway and the aircon switched off i couldn't care at all..cuz i was half awake only.. and i continued sleepin.. sushi say i v li hai.. aircon off stil can zz.. haha =) im a piggy what.

i still miss you. =(