im starting to think if what i once stood for is crumbling apart now. it makes me question.. if what i always thought that thing was is what it truly is.

-Closer To Me-

Constantly girl you're on my mind
Girl, I think about you all of the time
And even though words are hard to say
Girl I miss you, never thought I'd feel this way
If you keep on taking
My heart you'll be breaking
So why do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling
It's you I believe in
Baby can't you see that I need you?

Everyday reminisce about the past
Of a love that we thought would last
How we used to be when it was you and me
How did it all disappear so fast
There are days that I can't forget
There are things that I now regret
I was there for you when you were there for me
And I was thinkin' we were set
Every night when I'm laying in my bed
I hear your voice going round in my head
Think of all the things I could have done and
All those things I could have said
I really will make it up to you
I know now what I've got to do
It took time but now I've realised how much I'm missing you

You're an angel in my eyes
Everyday, you're closer to me

nice song.. =) old songs are always nicer than the songs nowadays. doesn't hold as much meaning anyway.

the higher the hopes you place for someone, picturing him as someone as near perfect and unique.. the more enormous the disappointment when that person disappoints you. i cant fathom why im feeling this way. but then. bahhs.

*im sorry

that's all i can say.. i know it may not hold much. but that is all i can say.

maybe everyone has always been like that all along..its just that i never came about finding out. will i ever find out anyway? no one is always honest anyway. the cruelties and realities of life start to sink in every now and then.. what has happened this year?its like this year is soo eventful.. both good and bad. ahh whateverr.

lost. confused. left stranded in a sea of thoughts.



ok.. i realized i spent $10 on food [and drinks] today. my gosh i'm seriously eatin ALOT. look..today after math lecture i went out just to buy a red bean paste bao to eat even though it was not break..den eat le one hour later i ate fish and chips during break. and then they dumped their coleslaw on my plate so i ate it all up. then ok quite full.. den later lunch break ate the malay food..with rice.. then got fried wanton they buy extra all in a bowl couldn't resist temptation so i ate that.. then ate sharon's veggy.. ate kelly's veggy and mushroom. what else? ok enough.

on sunday.. i practically ate and slept. that's what i did. yea.. i woke up.. eat.. then study a lil bit..then oh..im hungry.. i found curry.. leftovers from previous night.. ate the whole pot up.. then like a while later the maid buy me fried rice wrapped in egg.. ate it up.. then sleep 2+ hrs.. then wake up continue eating.. wth..

i just remembered today.. last time when i was in junior school.. i used to eat melanie's leftovers cuz she hardly touched her lunch! it was nice and she didn't eat it.. so i always ate hers on top of my own. maybe ive been a glutton all along... bleahs. =X

and i bought my ROASTED PEAS FINALLY! been craving for 3 days? that's torturous man. and im eating until its gonna finish again. sigh. and i juz woke up not long ago.. slept from 645-1015pm. wow. piggy. but piggies are cute! =D

but then sheep also eats and sleeps alot. muahaha.