i guess no one here in singapore has fully grasped the meaning of poverty..not until theyve gone elsewhere to see for themselves what hunger really is. that you're so desperate for food until u bare to pick up remnants of food particles stamped on before, or those already 'touched' by flies or maggots. as they say..desperate times call for desperate measures. ---gp is fun. haha. its an eye opener. just like economics. it makes you THINK. at least it makes my lazy pea brain think.

yesterday i went to the national library. hmm.. its nice.. you know.. like sorta sophisticated and all.. but the surrounding hdb flats don't seem to go hand in hand with the new building! haha.. and then they were sayin that it takes up lotsa space.. quite true.. tsk tsk.. is the national library another iconic building to attract tourists?

i seriously think im eating too much.. like how many meals do i eat per day? oh my.. everyone says ive got worms in my tummy.. that i will grow fat next time. listen up. i WILL NOT grow fat ok. hmph. =p i should go jog la.. my stamina has gone down the drain.. like totally. whatever happened to the strong evey? i'm supposed to be perserverant and be able to endure long distances relatively well. =X

i love caps =)

so long for now.. ciao~



there wasn't a chance to say goodbye. my whole mind is shrouded with questions, but no answers. would we all feel guilty for our past behaviour? i thought we always made a big joke out of things? we even said we wanted to hold a meeting to solve the problem. what bullshit. to think i thought it was funny. FUNNY. -.- i think we took it for granted. we took for granted the fact that he would always be there to talk lotsa crap, to........................ ahh. people. i wonder if they regret it. i wonder how he felt. did he feel our concern? when will i get my much-needed answers? i wonder what people feel. relief? bleah.

i always said i would come about doing it.. and then what if tomorrow never comes? what if? what if? just yesterday i was harping on the issue of there's always a reason behind everything. a blessing in disguise. after much thought last night, i figured.. its easier said than done. ALWAYS. but then after this happened, i know it has taught me a very valuable lesson. but will i change myself? will i continue to procrastinate? or will i choose to make my same old mistakes again? and i thought it wouldn't have an impact on my life.. i THOUGHT.

they didn't even have time to say parting words. they were on the PLANE for goodness sake. the message couldn't even be relayed to them at that time. he couldn't wait.. anymore. when people go, all feelings turn into.. whatever you call it. like say, even if you hated that person, you would feel.. (pity?) all of a sudden. bahhs. whatever.

why do i always wake up to bad news? can i don't sleep again? why can't i turn back time? maybe i should stop asking 'why' questions. what's the use anyway?




ahh! im in the mood for french once again! i miss french. let me see.. it was like.. 10 years ago since i learnt french? wow.. time flies.

bonjour mademoiselle et monsieur.. haha ok i think that's grammatically wrong. sheesh. =X

je m'appelle evelyn. comment sa va? haha ahhh~

un deux trois quatre cinq six sept huit neuf dix.. ok cool..haha

i think french is such a sophisticated language.. hmm talkin about sophistication.. that makes me more sophisticated than my president in this aspect right? since i can talk a lil french.. wahaha.. =P in that case i shall not reveal my president's identity then.. lest i get whacked for ruining the almighty's image. haha. french is soo elegant! if only i could write a whole paragraph of things in french. that would make me brilliantly sophisticated. oh i still remember.. there was one period when i was so french crazy i almost bought a french dictionary.. fortunately.. i didn't. haha.

i need a thesaurus.

can you read this? ok ignore me i was just testing out..after all im a noob at this. nice angel pic right? =)

-au revoir. =)



sighs.. i don't know why i am so sad today.. i feel so..lethargic.. no mood for anything. i just feel like listening to "love me for a reason" and "concerto d'amore".. i miss the band.. just now in school i kept hearing them playing.. then some of them had sectionals.. bahhs.. i want another concert.. i wanna blow my tuba.. = i want to play in the band concert where the sound of the music surrounds everyone.. "surround sound" where the music will make your spines tingle, and your hair stand. where you feel the air around you moving yada yada.. i wanna play phantom of the opera.. ok i'm dreaming again..

the middle part of concerto d'amore rocks big time. it makes you feel so..peaceful.. full of love.. yet in a tragic way.. ahh..whatever.

oh anyway.. happy birthday to zhiyang.. =) when i read that book i immediately thought that it suits you.. since you're so inquisitive.. =P

it feels so surreal.. yet.. i think the answer has come. [ok i know this is totally random and makes no sense whatsover..] yea... anyway.. i believe the answer has dawned upon me.



although to some people, war of the worlds is just another movie, but to me, it aint. its an eye-opener. i saw the way the people struggled to survive, where everyone's selfishness, fury and violence all come out in desperate times. as they say, "desperate times call for desperate measures". you can shoot just to survive. jump off the 'bridge' just to catch the last ship, and to find out that you're doomed no matter where you go. and one could actually kill someone in order to protect himself and his daughter from the so-called aliens.

in singapore, this kind of competitiveness is NOTHING compared to how people behave in china. you can call them barbaric and uncivilized, but its their need to survive that compels them to do what they do. push, shove, whatever. its chaotic. but in such a populous country, how can you survive without all these skills? it's just like in survivor where you backstab and do all inhuman things, just for one thing - to emerge as the ultimate survivor.

at the beginning of the show, it seemed like the father was insensitive and unloving.. but as the story unveils.. you see a fatherly love so strong that he can do anything, and i mean anything, just to save his son and daughter. the will to survive, and the love for a family.. can be soo great it compels you to do unthinkable things. sometimes people just cannot express their love well, that does not mean they don't love with all they have, with all their heart.

oh and anyway.. after readin pourqoui.. it made me realize one thing. kids are the most wonderful things you can ever have, apart from love, and your other loved ones, of course. kids' innocence makes you view things in a different light. those inquisitive ones will ask questions that make you ponder, and more often than not, its questions adults cannot answer. kids are beautiful. like totally.. =) kids.. in a way.. are smarter than us.. not in terms of knowledge of books or what, but those things that can only be felt by the heart. i cant think of the word.. it starts with 'v'.. darn..

oh and then i went to attend the NJCSB concert at victoria concert hall with ailin. their sound is , wow. and i really mean, WOW. especially for phantom of the opera. i could feel my spines tingle..my hair stand. of course i think its partly cuz of the acoustic of the hall.. but still.. you need a certain level of competence to achieve such wonderful sound right. thus. haha. no wonder wenjie loves that band so much. sighs. and i enjoyed the encore piece of abba song collections. wee~ a concert worth replaying. and japanese graffiti IV, it brings back memories. i lurrve that song. i still can remember the part i play! =D it somehow reminded me of hongxiang. bahhs.. he was a very funny senior to me. =)

anyway.. i still believe nanyang has the talent for every cca. its just that those talents are hidden..somehow. look at many of us AMBians.. we refuse to join the band cuz of its..erm..nvm..i shant say.. and people like kelly..has had enough of dance. somehow somewhere.. along the way.. those experienced just cease to re-join their cca.. and thus.. we have to retrain people.. and that's where we lose out. somehow, the passion isn't reignited.

anyway.. that's all for now.. ciao~